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posted by Unknown @ 1:20 AM Comments: 4

Well I have emailed all the media sources I can possibly think of and Im real exhausted. The american system just is not working why is it that I am the only one who can see that? Do these lawyers and judges and attorneys not care what kind of world their kids grow up in? Are all they are worried about is protecting the integrity of the system, which believe me is not much. I have been in the jails and the prisons and seen all the addicts and abusers in there. There is no respect for the government whatsover. Now at the point I am at right now, I can not blame them. The case of mine which I am going to fight tuesday will be one of the most ridiculous things on this planet. Only because they have chosen it to be that way. I do not believe I deserve to go to prison for the things I did, and honestly, many people who are in prison now do not belong there. All people on this earth are an addict in one way or another, some just take it to extremes. That is all I can say about it. You can bet the judge and the prosecuting attorney Mr Frank McCartney and Judge Rosenberry will have their own addictions, whether it is coffee, nicotine, porn, drugs, or in their case it might be power. Anyways, I will travel on in this life knowing in my heart that I am fighting the good fight for all of mankind and thats why I cannot stop. They can send me to jail, they can do what they want to do, but I have free speech in America as per the first amendment and thank god for that, they at least have to listen to me. This country and society has gotten to the point beyond ridiculous and I seriously want no part of it any longer. As soon as I am able I will leave the United States behind, seeking a freedom where freedom actually means freedom.

posted by Unknown @ 1:02 AM Comments: 0

Hmm well I think I am a little lost again. My ex not my ex wife, my ex girlfriend has been calling me the past couple of nights and I am split in half on what to do. Really is funny that when I started this blog it seemed to be here for me talking about giving out advice on the internet, and now I feel like I'm using it to ask for advice from other people. Somewhat of a strange situation really. I like have these thoughts about all these past exes and future girlfriends/exes(who knows) going through my head constantly. The one thing that seems to take me away from it is the fact that when I get on the computer I am like completely concentrated on it. I really don't think about anything else but what I am doing on the net. I am trying to decide whether I can sit back and try to let fate handle things or if I need to do something like choose somebody, I don't know. Hmm well feel free anyone to leave comments if you have any advice for me. If you are not sure what I am talking about here read a few previous posts and you will understand it much better.

posted by Unknown @ 8:31 PM Comments: 0

Ok, I feel so much better since publishing this post. Thanks for everyone's advice and emails, and thanks for your advice Becca, it might not been have what I wanted to hear at the time but I really think it was some good advice. I feel a new swing in my step again and feel like I'm headed down the right path once again. I have realized that the choice I needed to make was no choice at all. Whatever will happen, I must let it happen, and whatever doesn't happen won't happen. I can't pick and choose, I cannot drive this car any longer as that is what always kept me so stressed out before. It drives itself now, all I do is occasionally look at the road to make sure I'm still on it (literally sometimes, haha). My life has taken on many new stressors though with all the work I am doing on the internet, however, this seems to be the most enjoyable part of my life that I have found to date. I believe this is one of the main things that has been missing from my life since the very begginning. Well, I must really go now as I have more design work to do on other sites at the moment. Everyone, stay strong and things will go your way eventually as long as you try your best. That's my advice for the day.

posted by Unknown @ 1:32 PM Comments: 0

Wow,
That is about all I can say at this point I think i is wow. I am sitting here in front of my computer too dumbfounded to be able to think of what the heck I am supposed to do now. I am supposed to be the one giving out advice???? I am having my own love life issues at the moment. These issues at the present time are really just too much too get into to really do this I would have to go into a complete life history of what has happened on everything before I ever got onto the internet. But, here is a short run down of what is occurring in my personal life, all internet life aside. I have an ex-wife, who I actually believe has been emailng me for advice on her relationship, which is strange in itself. I have two little girls with her, and I see them every other weekend. I am not sure myself right now if I should try to get back together with her or not. Ok, now we enter #2 into the equation, which is the girl I started dating right after I got divorced. We both were addicts and did a lot of drugs together, and I believe maybe this is why we seem to be so connected. Sometime after my failed suicide attempt after I wrecked her car when I was too messed up to drive, she began seeing a guy named Tom. Not me. Her Dad put a restraining order against me because she was only 17 at the time and I was 24 he was able to do this since she was still considered a minor however she did not want it. But she was lonely, and kept seeing Tom. I do not want to use to many real names here cause I am not real sure about what the laws are related to blogging and the internet right now, and really I don't want to get sued by anyone. Ok so this restraining order was brought into effect last november. The whole thing was ridiculous because I never would have hurt her or anything like that, and honestly I just think her family was trying to look out for what was best for her, however, I'm not sure if it was best for her or not. Now as of this post, I have not seen her for around 4 or 5 months and I see her now last night. The whole thing seems like it should be the script of a movie. We sit outside on my front porch and just hold each other for about an hour, we both have changed, but both are still the same. Naturally, I am not sure what to do about any of these things anymore. On top of all this I have recently met another girl on the internet who I may go see that lives in Missouri, and have never met her before. So needless to say, I am very confused at this point in my life. I am not sure which direction to take, whichwill be the right path, who should I choose what should I do? Becca, I hope you read this and can give me some insight of your opinion. I am truly lost at the moment. All of the confusion on the internet aside, I am confused right here in my own personal love life. Do I go back with my ex wife and try to have a family again after she cheated on me and completely destroyed my heart?? What of my other ex who I have such strong feelings for but is currently engaged?? She says she is only with him because she can't be with me right now, which is true as she lives quite a ways away from me now. And throw into this mess the girl I have been chatting with on the internet who I would like to meet and we seem to really get along too. I am not sure what to do at all. I am lost. Anyone, feel free to post if you have any comments as to how I can resolve this situation.

posted by Unknown @ 4:56 AM Comments: 3